euthanasia

i'm gonna cross-post from my multiply post, but i'm gonna edit a little. :)

in abnormal psych class, i didn't have a laptop so i was FORCED to listen to the lecture. in the lecture on euthanasia, sir showed us a video on an organization who does euthanasia on people who want to die. they have assisted over 100 deaths this year. it's just sad that people want to die. i get the suffering and not wanting to prolong the burden on his part and the family. BUT I WOULDN'T HELP HIM DIE. HUHUHU. in the video, before they helped him die, the wife kissed and hugged him for the last time. that was suuuper sad. HUHUUHUH.

and did you guys know that there are 1million deaths by suicide every year, and 10-20 million attempted suicides. it's just sad that people seriously want to die. i know no one gets out of life alive, but why would you want to die.

me, i want to die now figuratively because of the many things i have to do. but on top of it all, i'm thankful because i'm still alive and i still have friends and people who care about me. so here's my thanklist for aug12-13!

1. for tears that aren't shed for sadness. :)
2. for friends. :) i love my friends. i really do. :)
3. for burger machine and mcdo!! WOOH. for sansrival, mango things and water things. HAHAHA.
4. for life. because i'm still alive and i don't want to die just yet. no to euthanasia and suicides!!!
5. in educational psychology class, maam read my reflection about paranormal abilities as an intelligence. she read it while i was on my way to class. she took advantage of my tardiness. BWAHAHA. but it's okay. :)


but today, i'm dying. because tomorrow:
- i have philo orals, there are no thesis statements so i have to make sure i cover everything.
- our philo prof is making us read kant. i KANT understand him.
- italian composition. i'm already done with the composition. i just have to translate it to italian.

HUHUHUUHUHUHUH.
i call this phenomenon SUFFERING. because when you suffer, it's not because you feel pain, but because you cannot understand and you cannot identify where the pain comes from and where the hurt comes from. and whenever you do, you cannot ACCEPT that the pain comes from that source. when you suffer, everything around you suffers and you become a bearer of suffering.


i feel like crying.