i'm still on a high.

i cannot understand, but i'm really afraid that all of this is gonna turn around very soon. i've also given IT a lot of thinking, and my resolution is that: i should not think about it further. because everytime i do, so many thoughts race through my mind, my head starts to hurt and my heart beats faster. i try so hard to understand all of this, but i think that point of all of this is that...

the more you try to understand, or make sense of things, the more it becomes harder and harder to understand.

so i shall not try to understand it.
i won't even question anything.
:)