a very sober timee gorecho. :) i didn't promise not to drink. i just didn't want to. so people took over my throne. my reign as multiply coverpic is over. :) i pass it on na. :)i'm just so proud i didn't drink. :)
(APPARENTLY THIS IS THE ONLY PHOTO I CAN POST. mercury retrograde is happening again. BUT IT'S FEB1!!!!! so. i'm sorry.)
i make it a point to go to the strike set though. even though i'm not a member of the stage and props or stage management committee. for me, the strike set is part of the letting go process. as i physically see that the carpenters hammer apart the set, remove the stage piece by piece.. i see that what's going to be left with us are the memories.
memories are just painful. because it's something that you have. you can recall from time to time... something that you can be happy or sad about. but you know it will never happen again. yet memories are all that we have, and i'm good with it rather than not having any.
last night, during our last bilog...i didn't get to say my prayer, but as sir jethro said, Lord hears it. and if ever i did get the chance to say something in the bilog, i'd say. Thank You.
i assume that a few people know about what happened when we saw the results of the Unang Baboy Sa Langit auditions. (you can click here to know more. )it was just. emotional. crazy emotional. had my ears pierced, splurged on dairy queen, new york fries and candies. and stuffed toys too. i remember that day very well. i consumed 3 packs of tissue paper. at the end of the day, a few people who were concerned, talked to us. and maybe at that time, i still didn't understand. even during the first few weeks of the rehearsal. i didn't want to understand. i was still emotional.
but now as i recall that very day, i can say that i'm glad that happened. because if not, i wouldn't be this fulfilled, this grateful, this happy with unang baboy sa langit. it was a long process. i am just so glad i am part of this history-making with ENTABLADO. as you all know, this is the first ever staging of UNANG BABOY SA LANGIT. it's just crazy. words cannot contain my emotions right now. i'm just. so. happy. for everything.
i'd never expect that i'd be this happy in the end. but i am. it's orgasmic. it's heartwarming to see people offering their efforts to ENTABLADO. to THEATER. to UNANG BABOY SA LANGIT. i'm glad that people feel at home in ENTA, that they feel the love, that it's a huge family you're looking forward to go home to every night. i love that the bilog of ENTA keeps getting bigger and bigger. my passion for ENTA, for the STAGE, for THEATER just burns. it's crazy.
with this blog, i'd like to thank a few people who made this journey extra wonderful. :) i'm just extra overwhelmed, so if i keep repeating stuff, or if it's too short, or if i don't make sense anymore, please forgive me because at this point, words just aren't enough. :)
Thank you Maam Christine Bellen for wonderfully stitching it all together, for creating the play, for helping ENTABLADO, for bringing to life Butsiki and all the characters in Unang Baboy sa Langit. it's an honor to be a part of a play you have written. i swear. Thank you so much. :) i asked everyone to sign in my souv program, and this is what maam christine wrote for me: "Timee, Best Singer for Pasko Scene..love, Christine Bellen. it's an honor. truly an honor. thank you so much maam. :)
Sir Noel. (waaah!! iiyak na ako!!!!!) it was on the first day of music rehearsals when you taught us Awit ng Pagsilang. and i loved the song right after you hit the last note on the score sheet. ever since then, when we would have music rehearsals, when you'd ask us "oh what else do you want to rehearse", i'd whisper loudly "maningning!! maningning!!" just so other people could hear, and suggest it to you directly. it was my favorite among all the songs you taught us. and then, when i got back from my super delayed flight, you asked me what my role was in the Awit ng Pagsilang scene, 'bata po'... and you gave me the chance to sing my peborits song. God knows how much i was crying inside. my heart was crying and screaming in excitement. sobrang natuwa ako. everytime i would sing the song during shows, i'd always remember how you gave me the solo part and how i felt right at that very moment.
last night when i was reading my souv program, i read what you wrote for me and it just made me squeal in kilig, in tuwa, naiyak ako: "timee, awit ng pagsilang will always be your song. i'm dedicating that to you. love, noel" sorry kung OA na ako, but i could read it over and over and over again, and still cry. Thank you so much sir noel, not only for maningning, but also for making me feel that i could sing. (could i? cheke) for making me believe in myself. (cheke.) Thank you sir. IT'S AN HONOR. super. :)
Doc Jerry. di ko alam kung mababasa nyo ito, pero gusto ko lang talagang magpasalamat dahil tinanggap nyo ako sa UNANG BABOY SA LANGIT. parang mas naging extra fulfilling ang college life ko dahil nakasama ako sa isang play na dinirect mo. :) i'm so honored. :) salamat po. sobra.
Sir Jet. Buwan at Baril koro days seemed like yesterday. I remember our stretchings. Laolum. jogging around the RMT barefoot. chairs flying. "AM I TALKING TO DEAD PEOPLE?!" everything. my first ENTA experience. i owe you a lot. at sobrang nagpapasalamat ako sayo dahil hindi nyo kami iniwan, dahil nung simula pa lamang ng unang baboy ay inalagaan mo kami. hindi mo kami pinabayaan. kahit hanggang XPRES. pinatibay mo ang mga loob namin. ang loob ko. salamat sobra. ENTA isn't the same without you. parang, WHAT IS ENTA, ikaw ang isa sa mga naiisip ko. :) thank you sir. :)
Ate Virr. (waah iyak na ako!) (grabeh parang ayokong itype kasi naiiyak na talaga ako. cheke!!!!!!) wwoooohhh. pwede bang tagalog nlng. haha. sa lahat ng nangyari, hindi mo ako pinabayaan sa unang baboy sa langit. lagi mo akong pinapasaya, pinapaiyak (cheke!) at pinapagaan ang loob ko. God knows how much i'm thankful for you. Thank you sobra. ikaw ang naging inspiration ko sa ENTA. nung napanood kita sa Sandaang Panaginip, i said, i wanted to be like you too. but no one can be better than THE Virlynn Ramirez. :) (i mean that in a positive way!) thank you so much. sa pagpapalakas mo sa loob ko. Thank you talaga.
Rizzie Maguire! i don't know how we got close (baket close ba tayo? HA? cheke!) but i'm so glad that our paths crossed. ah alam ko na pala, TARONG FOH. :) thank you dahil kahit lumabag ako sa batas na dapat sa FO ng TARONG ako lumalapit, you found me. cheke! i found you. :) and you have become one of the people i super treasure. thank you for always being there for me. for the shopping dates nung XPRES pa, for the MCDO dates, for everything. alam mo kung gano kita kamahal. kung lasing ka pa, okay. haha. but sana wag mong isipin na galit ako sayo dahil lang don. :) mas MAHAL KITA KESA SA KANYA. sa kanya ako magagalit pag ni-rape ka nya. HAHA. i love you riz. i will super miss you. as in super. :((
Leinard. may issue ako sayo. malaki. secret ko nalang yon. cheke. hahahaha. gusto ko pa ring ipaglaban na walang issue ang BnB koro sayo. as in, it never crossed our mind. never. kahit ayaw mong maniwala. haha. thank you sa pagtitiwala. sa paniniwala. para sa akin, ikaw ang tunay na takda. "huhulihin kita..." YON PARIN! haha. Thank you lei. mamimiss kita. kahit ma issue ka. CHEKE! JOKE LANG OH! :)
Jose. tu sais je t'aime. Dieu sait combien je suis reconnaissant d'avoir vous. nous avons déjà vécu beaucoup... je vous remercie d'être là pour moi. okay naghihingalo na ako. HAHA. pero jose. salamat sa sinulat mo sa souv program ko. masaya akong hindi lang kita naging TNT. nakasama rin kita sa ENTA. mahal kita. sana wag mo nang isipin na wala kang friends, kasi ang dami talagang nagmamahal sayo. marami talaga. :) thank you sobra sa lahat. dahil nung simula palang ng prod, alam mo naman kung ano yung naramdaman ko diba. at di mo ako iniwan. thank you talaga. i love you jose. andito lang ako. i'll miss you. :)
Kate. yung binulong ko sayo nung after ng BILOG. yun parin sasabihin ko ngayon. pero sana di kita nabigo sa buong taon kong nagtrabaho under you. :) sobrang dami kong natutunan from you, salamat sobra. Sinto muito se eu não entrar em. :) but thank you. sobra. salamat lola. :)
Jika. *hug* thank you sa lahat. sa internet. cheke. HAHA. but really. sa lahat. from JEEP insertions, to pabutas ng tenga... to crazy conversations.. to graduating from Harvard, although you're dropping out now. boo. Thank you. i've always believed in you. and God knows how much i love you. strong girl ka. love you dear. mwah
Dianne. bulong ko nlng sayo. :) SALAMAT. if it weren't for TG FOH, i wouldn't know you. but whatever happens, andito lang talaga ako. i've said things i shouldn't have, i'm so sorry. you deserve to be happy dianne. :) seriously. don't worry, everything will be okay. i swear. :) i love you. :)
Pao. :) thank you. we haven't talked for so long na, and there are so many things i want to tell you. if only i knew how to. but someday i will. Thank you for making my stay in ENTA extra special. :) (iiwan na tayo ni dianne :(( ) no matter what happens. i will just be here. :)
thank you unang baboy sa langit. you'll always have a special place in my heart. FOREVER.
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