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i've been feeling shiteous for the past few days.
hormonal imbalance i guess? or no. just stress.
i've been wanting to blog about immersion, but i need a better disposition to write that. it deserves to be written in an at least good mood, and i'm not having any of that lately.

i feel like i'm drowning myself and at the same time something's pulling me down. and no matter what i do, i'm not getting out of the water. i need to get out of the water. i need to.
and i know there's only one way to do it.