When I'm Alone

from here

this was supposed to be a blog about something else

I was so depressed last night, kept me up till 4am just thinking. and i hate when that happens. when you really really want to sleep, but stuff on your mind's keeping you up. (why was i depressed, i totally got good news last night! haha)

Luckily, I woke up on a lighter mood and enjoyed the silence of my morning. I got to school lazily (our event doesn't start till 4, so was in school by 10) and did nothing. haha! On the jeepney ride on the way to school, i thought about what i wanted to do in my life (oo, all that in that 10 minute ride haha) and what i can do to achieve all my life goals. I remember i wanted to put up a theater company for special children, but for the past year, that goal has been out of the picture. So i re-thought everything and.....

I'M TAKING CHARGE OF MY LIFE.

(hindi pa ba? haha)

While I was strategizing, I realized my plans always involved "ask this person to help me get into" and "get this person to endorse me to this company" and "buy lotto tickets to be a millionaire". I cannot just depend on people to help me with every step of the way.

I MUST DO THINGS MYSELF. MUST TAKE CHARGE OF MY OWN LIFE! :)

and while I wait for the lottery to pick my numbers, I must do something to get to my dreams. If I want to get into an Interior Design school, I'm paying for it on my own. I have to understand that I cannot always rely on others (i.e. my parents) to support me with everything. (of course they will, I just have to support myself this time) Pay my own rent, pay bills on time, draw the line between needs and ultimate wants, live a simpler life. If I do this right, the life i'm dreaming of may not be too far away. :)

Why and how have i thought about all of this? Henry Sy. John Gokongwei. The rest of the Chinese business tycoons. They started even lower. So if they could do,

SO CAN FREAKIN' I. (wala sa tamang grammar hahaha)

I'm just tired of being the carefree whatever-goes girl that i have been, so lax and chill. I want to be the girl who knows what she wants and does everything to get it. I want my life to go somewhere, and not wait for things to happen. No, I will be in charge of my life. :)

and then love.

Love used to be my priority, but now I cannot just sit and wait for love to happen. I cannot think of love first because I have lots to work on myself and this world I've made up. So i'm going to do all these things for myself, for my career, for my dreams, and hope that somewhere in between, love is going to find me and finally happen to me. I don't care how long it takes. :)

My future husband better hurry up because I plan to die in my 50s. chos.

so if you're the type of person who, after reading this blog says, "you go girl". no. wala kang pakialam. chos. haha. thank you. hopefully, things will all fall into place as I plan it to be. Kung hindi, eh di wag! haha! That carefree whatever-goes girl will still be there, thrilled for more surprises.

if you're the type of person who, after reading this blog say, "dang this girl is so ferosh she should win the lottery and do everything she can to get what she wants, so that she can help and heal the world with her power and make it a better place"

then we should be friends. :)

CCP's MONODRAMA MANILA

I'm a CCP Virgin. Yes, I kissed the CCP grounds and made a wish. HAHA Dolly and I have been together through thick and thin, RMT, FA Theater, Henry Lee Irwin and then the recent Pilandok run in Meralco Theater. Our next stop will definitely be CCP. (before we go to Madison Square Garden. chos)

So Leinard and I trekked (oo naglakad kami from Megamall) to CCP to watch Monodrama Manila as part of our cultural immersion. It was a week-long festival of one-act drama monologues (kaya nga MONODRAMA diba!), and we only got to watch the last 3 plays of the festival; Anak ng Babaylan by Al Santos, Queen Kong by Fray Paolo Casurao, Galeon ni Simeon by Layeta Bucoy.

The first play was good, both the actor and the direction. It was about how a civilization ended because of one Native's desire to be a sacristan and worship the religion (sorry ang walang kwenta ko haha). I liked it. :)

Queen Kong was the most entertaining, as it was mostly comedic. The script in itself was dramatic; the OFW's tragic fate of working as a teacher in the US and finding out that the money she has been sending to her family, also goes to her husband's mistress. She goes home and decides to be an OFW Beauty Queen. It was light, but entertaining. :)


I'd have to say, my favorite was Galeon ni Simeon, the monologue wonderfully (omg-fully) portrayed by Shamaine Centenera-Buencamino. SOBRANG GANDA, SOBRANG GALING NI SHAMAINE, SOBRANG GANDA, LAYETA BUCOY. And this is not my first Layeta Bucoy play; she also wrote "Isang Libong Tula Para sa Dibdib ni Dulce" which was one one of the plays in the Writers' Bloc's 10x10x10. Which was SOBRANG GANDA din. Tuxqs Rotaquio directed Galeon ni Simeon. wala akong masabi. sobrang speechless ako. sobrang ganda.

SOBRANG GANDA.

Noni Buencamino and his daughter Delphine were sitting in front of us. For a minute there, I told Lei, "shet, we're so cultured"

Hay nako. yun lang. (expressing my grief in my futile attempt to write a matinong review)

Blue Repertory's STAGES OF LOVE

Because we support our friend Victor Robinson III, we watched Stages of Love this year. Ateneo Blue Repertory has staged this original by Jill Pena ever since, ever (well i don't really know hehe)

Blue Repertory’s Stages of Love. An amalgamation of well-loved OPM hits, Stages of Love follows the stories of 5 couples as they journey through the crazy, entangled complexities of relationships to eventually discover their own definitions of love. On February 4, 5, 11, 12 at 7PM; February 6, 13 at 5PM & 8PM; February 7, 14 at 3PM, 5PM, 8PM; at the Ateneo de Manila University Fine Arts Theatre. For ticket inquiries, please call 0917-3792910 or visit stagesoflove.multiply.com

synopsis from here

I've watched it twice, my first time was 2 years ago with Mian Dimacali, Jio Javier, Joey Marquez, etc in the cast. This year, we watched Victor's show on BlueRep's one night only Newbie run. I just had one eeny meenie tiny comment for that particular show; i think some of the songs were just too low for some of the actors' voice ranges, we couldn't hear the lyrics clearly. But other than that, the show was fantastic, it kept everyone interested and kilig. haha. Of course, my favorite scene was that of Victor's. ANG BENTA MO VIC. CRAZY. HAHAHAHA

Hay nako, (expressing my grief in my futile attempt to write a matinong review, which is 2 weeks late sorry) basta the next time BlueRep stages Stages of Love, you better watch it. Sige, watch it with your bufra or your gufra if you're okay with cheese, but it's best to watch it with "friends kuno", or "your bestfriend whom you secretly like", your ex, your "hindi talaga, friends lang talaga kami" friend. :)

PETA's CAREDIVAS by Liza Magtoto and Vincent De Jesus

So, my friends and I decided to be culture enthusiasts (such word!) and go on a cultural immersion starting with PETA's new musical "Care Divas". We couldn't miss it since our friend Jason Barcial was there. and who wouldn't want to watch something from Liza Magtoto and Vincent de Jesus? :)

In the Philippine Educational Theater Association’s (PETA) latest musical comedy-drama titled “Care Divas,” five transvestite overseas workers travel to the historic land of Israel in the time of the intifada (the Palestinian uprising against Israeli occupation), bringing with them the unique brand of warm Pinoy nurturing to care for elderly Jews.

Every day, they wash, feed and entertain their employers as loving caregivers. Come nighttime, the five whip out their make-up and sky-high heels to perform as glamorous drag queens in a Tel Aviv club.

The day after, they go back to playing the role of caregiver, once again tending to the aged Jews who depend on them for food, human connection and survival.

At the core of the story is Chelsea (Melvin Lee), who seems to have it all--blessed with a kind employer who teaches him Hebrew and a potential lover who accepts him for what he is. Shai (Vincent De Jesus) the leader of the group, is always haunted by the image of his mother who rejected him for his sexuality. The two are joined by Kayla (Jerald Napoles), Thalia (Dudz Teraña, Jason Barcial) and Jonee (Phil Noble, Buddy Caramat) who also release their creativity through performing.

The five strive to adapt to Israeli culture. Their Filipino tongues struggle to learn Hebrew while silently battling the orthodox view on gays. They are always alert, constantly fearing deportation and war.

Armed by their aspirations (and their pointed stilettos), their true spirits and creativity shine through in their performances. They dream of becoming big-time divas while encountering problems along the way. But it is through their journey that they are able to share the valuable experiences and friendships that bind strangers like them in a strange land.

The creative team behind “Care Divas” includes acclaimed writer Liza Magtoto, multi-awarded composer Vincent De Jesus, prolific director Maribel Legarda, costume designer John Abul, events and theater lighting designer Jon Jon Villareal, visual artist and award-winning set designer Leo Abaya and contemporary dancer and choreographer Carlon Matobato.

The cast includes some of the biggest and brightest theater and television actors today: Melvin Lee, Vincent De Jesus, Ricci Chan, Jerald Napoles, Phil Noble, Buddy Caramat, Dudz Teraña, Jason Barcial, Cecilia Garrucho, Paul Holme, Myke Solomon, Angeli Bayani, Eric Dela Cruz and Dom Miclat-Jansen.

“Care Divas” runs at the PETA Theater Center every Friday, Saturday and Sunday, 10 A.M. and 3 P.M., February 4-March 13, 2011. For inquiries and ticket reservations, contact PETA Marketing and Public Relations Office 7256244, 4100821 or 0917-5644233. E-mail petatheater@gmail.com.

Synopsis from here

We immensely enjoyed the play. It was very entertaining; musical numbers of different genre all wonderfully orchestrated together by Vincent de Jesus, comedic 'hirits' here and there, love stories in between, and drama. Props to Liza Magtoto for creating a play like this, despite her 'handicaps' (not being an OFW, haven't experienced being a caregiver, and not being gay) as she explained in the souvenir program. The set was utilized well in all of the scenes, very minimalist, but very good. The play ran for 3 hours, but you wouldn't even notice it was THAT long.

Hay nako, (expressing grief in my futile attempt to write a matinong review) basta, ya'll should see Care Divas. We're going to watch it again (with a different set of actors)! hihi

JASON BARCIAL YOU WERE GREAT!!! Woooh!!!

watch out for the guys plays Faraj. keri!