do you want bread?

i'll just laugh. you judge. ROFL

on an island in the sun

i like that song. :) but i chose it as a title for my blog just because it has the word "sun". HAHAHA.

so remember how i've always wanted to go to the beach and get a tan.


my dreams. have been fulfilled.

today, the seniors of the ENTA EB (danica, timee, jeds, omar!) with the resort's owner, Pam, went to Zambales to see the place. :) we also finalized the activities and agendas for the PLEVSEM there. and we had enough time to go swimming!!! WWOOOOHHH!! :)

and although i did want to get a tan, i didn't expect that i'd achieve this goal in a span of 5 hours under the sun. i, not only achieved this goal, but i also achieved burnt skin. HAHA.

i'm not tan. i'm red. HAHA.

anyhoo. i'm just sooo looking forward to ENTA's PLEVSEM. that's FOUR FRIGGIN DAYS in the beach. will people still see me in the dark? will i burn forever? hahaha.


SO EXCITED! WOOH!

high school

with so much time on my hands, i decided to rummage through my old photo albums in my multiply account, as my media locker says i have 253 albums. (and i have 1003 blog entries. ROFL) it's hard to believe i have that many photos because it was just recently that i got my own camera. :) but i'd like to take a stroll down memory lane and post a few photos from my old multiply albums. :) teasing is allowed. LOL

this is how we usually are. a typical day back in our highschool days.
that's caj playing with her hair, and everyone else reading something. hahaha

because football was a sport unrecognized by our school, we didn't have a football varsity. until ben (the one beside me in pink headband) brought "becky" (the name of her football) to school. ever since then, we played football every lunch time in the highschool field. there were no goals, but we had goalees. we had teams. the whole lot. haha. we weren't in the proper attire so when the ball flies across the field, you'd see a black school shoe flying with it. HAHA.
this was the football varsity. the only one in the history of assumption-iloilo. haha
L-R: catt, ben, timee, mabel(with my shoe), anne, fiona, bionat, maan

before we became seniors, my friends pinky, ben, sha, kj, tecia and I auditioned for a musical on the life of Pope John Paul 2. the play was entitled LOLEK (that was the pope's nickname) and we met lotsa people as the cast was very huge. :) miss you lolek people!

me and my siblings back when we were much younger.
josh when he didn't have a girlfriend,
kaylle when lolo cut her bangs, thus the ugly hair,
sivney who didn't eat anything but chicken. HAHA
and a thinner me. boo.

ben, pinky, len, myka and i went to bora after graduation.
we fed the fish and went to another island to swim forever. hahahaha
i want a tan!!!

rehearsals for our El Filibusterismo play entitled LA VUELTA. :)
i miss highschool plays. :) back when there was no budget, and the class treasurer would go around every silence period to collect for class funds.. lol.

Vespers. :) the seniors always had to wear their gala uniforms during important masses.
i love this shot. :)

KAPATIRAN Day 1: Eco Day
The Kapatiran is one of the most awaited events of the year in the hs community. it's where the the seniors (mommies) are paired with a freshman(babies) each. there are activities everyday for the seniors to welcome the freshies! hahahah. it's also an excuse for us to play dress-up without anyone telling us how silly we look. :)

CAT class. :)
i've always liked CAT classes. because?

i was an officer! hahahahahaha!
anabel, catt, myka(covered), cyndi, timee, len, mac, pinky, lulu!

seniors' immersion and retreat! :) we went to guimaras and spent a day with an aeta family! :) it was also my first time to ride at the back of a motorcycle! hahah. our aeta family was lovely. :)

Mary Song Writing contest. :) the whole batch wrote a song for Mary and competed against the other batches. :) we only won first runner up though. but we enjoyed! :)
this is a photo of the musicians of the song writing contest. the singers were in the center of the stage. haha. more pictures in our multiply account!

For our English play, my section staged our own version/adaptation of TROY. it was dubbed as SCAR OF TROY. :) i love the costumes here. considering we didn't have money to fund our plays. :) that's hector and paris stopped by the temple guards. :)

and this is the body of hector which achilles dragged around the walls of troy.
this was actually a funny scene. HAHAHA. maliz was heavy, and it was hard dragging her around, but loi kept her cool. hahaha

the last play i directed and wrote in highschool. :) intense researching on the history of Assumption-Iloilo. :) the play was entitled MEMORIAS DE LA ASUNCION. :)
it was hard because we had two plays at the same time, and the director for The Scar of Troy was my lead actress, shinette. :) and there were lots of actors in SOT who were also in my play. but we pulled it off! and i must say, we did well! both plays were awarded best plays! and lots of other awards. weeh!

we did GK too! :) our GK work was the monday after our seniors' night (prom-ish) so that it was okay for us to be dark, dirty and ugly. hahahaha

me and the rest of the yearbook staffers had to leave GK early because we had work. :)

it's always so surprising for me when i hear other people talk about their highschool. they have 10++ sections per batch, and they're about 400-500 per year level. back when we were seniors, we were all jampacked into two sections of 51 students each, that's 102 seniors. :) we all knew each other, and we were all friends. :) i miss HS. :)

and if you ask me which is the best, i wouldn't have an answer. because i think highschool and college are incomparable. :) both are fun and memorable in different ways. :) i know i'll miss college as much as i miss highschool. :)

more pictures at www.ac0506.multiply.com

i'm back and i'm freeee!!

i've just taken a break from my chores. my fingers are bleeding, literally. i've been washing my undies for two hours now, and i'm not even done yet. LOL. anyway. why do i have chores? well. i plan to clean my corner completely. as if i'm leaving the dorm. i just want my part of the room to be clean by the time my new roommies come in. cha and iya have left the dorm a month ago and i've been hoarding the whole room to myself. har har. whaaat! i'm alone in the room! haha.

and heck, i'm sooooo excited for summer! :)

ENTABLADO is going to Zambales for our Planning and Evaluation Seminar on April 12-15! WOOH! My internship starts on April12, but i have a very flexible working schedule, so i can start on the 16th! :) will discuss about my internship later! :)

so anyway. last Wednesday, April 25, after my philo orals, my friends and i went on a very spontaneous roadtrip. haha. we drove (lei's car) all the way to Laguna and Tagaytay for lunch and desserts. haha. when we got back, we went to UP for isaw, and then went back to the dorm to drink and celebrate our last day! WOOH. :) the following day, i helped lei pack and drag and carry her stuff. and then we went shopping in 168 in divisoria! :) spell ADVENTURE. haha.

i love adventures. :)

enzo, gar and I at the backseat!

Zipline, it's where they strap you on this thing that'll hold you in place, and then they push you and then you'll slide down the cable wires across the cliffs. SCARY. it's like this.
Keshia was the only brave soul. i'll post the video soon. HAHAHA

i took this pretty shot of lei and nino!
taken while we were walking to the zipline place. :)

and i must say, the highlight of this roadtrip was:
CREPES.
we went to Cafe Breton in the Cliffhouse (?) in Tagaytay. that place is love. :)
i love Cafe Breton already. :) this crepe is called FANTASTIC PINAY. it's filled with mangoes, covered in Nutella, Chocolate Sauce and instead of whipped cream, i got vanilla ice cream. :)
they should call it SUPERFRAGALISTICESPIYALIDOCIOUS CREPE. :)

after we dropped enzo and gar in ateneo, we went to UP for ISAW! :) rain didn't stop us from eating isaw! hahahaha. UP ISAW IS LOVE!

after isaw, we stopped by rustans to buy drinks (and then to national bookstore for balikbayan boxes). and so, we drank gatorade+sprite+gin! hahah. keshia still had a bottle of absolut vanilla, we didn't like it. HAHAHA. tasted like tempra. HAHA.

and because i didn't have enough sleep (because i was studying for philo), i got sooo sleepy by the end of the day. HAHA. i stayed awake for as long as i could. but still, i was the first one out. haha

the following day, we decided to go shopping in 168 divisoria! we found these really cute summer hats. we didn't buy them because they were too expensive. haha

i love adventures.
let's do it again! :)

be the change you want to see in the world

let's start with Earth Hour 2009. Let's switch off our lights for just an hour on March 28, 2009 from 8:30-9:30 p.m., wherever you are in the world. Make a statement.


make your momma earth proud. :)

is it okay?

read this. teens in America think it was okay for Chris Brown to hit Rihanna.

now you tell me.

WHAT IS LOVE?

this was the question picked from the drawlot for our social psychology test. i didn't like this question not because i wasn't sure with my answer at that moment, but because i don't think there really is a specific answer for it. i don't think my pen could mark the paper with the right answer. i am hoping i get the full 20 points for my essay based on what we discussed in class. but if i were given freedom, i'd say you don't need a definition to know it's love. you just know it. you just feel it. you just embrace the thought of being in love. by "being in love" i don't mean just romantic love. i literally mean it. "being" the state of existing. "in" indicates state or condition. "love" whatever that means. "being in love" as in state of existing in this state called love. would you understand? i doubt anyone will ever understand what love really is. As Sternberg said, we each have our own schemas of love, it is our own love stories. our beliefs and ideas are dictated by and patterned after this love story. and perhaps, this is why there will never be a definition for love. because we all have our own love stories. we all have our ideas of what love is. and i don't think there are no right or wrong answers to this question. it wouldn't only be wrong if we give an answer that hasn't been felt by the heart... that doesn't come from the heart.

and i don't even know if what i'm saying above is right. :) i don't care. :)


on another note, i'm craving for jollibee's crispy juicy chicken. just one fastfood day please. please? anyone wanna jollibee with me? haha

Social Facilitation

i love improv everywhere. you can look them up on youtube. :) they're this group who organizes. well. improvisation. HAHA. the first video i saw was the Frozen Grand Central. gogo look for it.

but i'm posting this because it has something to do with Social Psychology. :) there's this thing called Social Facilitation wherein a person or a group of people performs better or worse when in the presence of an audience. Usually, when you're confident about something, you become more confident when you know people are watching you. And when you're unsure with doing something, chances are, you might fail and do worse at it when people are watching you. :)

below is a video by Improv Everywhere entitled "BEST GAME EVER" They picked out a random little league game and went through the whole nine yards to make it look like it's a major league baseball game. :)



In this case, Social Facilitation made the kids perform better. And win or lose, this was indeed their BEST GAME EVER. :) this is a nice thing to do, especially for the kids who need a little self-esteem and confidence boost. :) kudos to Improv Everywhere! :)

and i like Improv Everywhere not just because it's funny, but because it's psychology in itself. How do people react to new stimuli? (wooh!) What happens when something unusual or deviant to the norms occurs? There's this one videe, IE went to Russia and they picked a random furniture store. what the agents had to do was to sleep on the couches or beds in the store. and the reaction? the police came. but didn't file any arrest. because they couldn't find any reason for it to be something illegal. :) funny. haha

the next video is one of my favorites. :) i've always wanted to do this in the caf as part of our promotions. just burst into song. hahahaha. well. here ya go! :)



last. here's a video of a redhead protest against wendy's. just hilarious. :) enjoy!


REDHEADS RULE! YOUR LOGO IS CRUEL!100x
WHAT DO WE WANT?!?!?!
ACCURACY WITH THE IMAGE OF REDHEADS!!
WHEN DO WE WANT IT!?!?
NOW!!!
WENDY'S LOGO GOT TO GO, HEY HEY!! HOHO!!

hahaha too hilarious. :)
go look for more of IE's videos! :) they rock my socks.

kirk is dead.

alas. mercury retrograde strikes again. this time. it struck hard.

yesterday at around 7:30, while cursing the sh*tty day i just had, i realized my phone died. i got my charger and took out the battery of my phone. you see, kirk doesn't like the normal chargers. so i bought him a nice universal charger, the one where you take out the battery and attach it to the two metal rods of the charger. and if the green light blinks, give it 2hours till forever for it to fully charge.

and so i plugged the charger in the socket and then
*KABOOOM*
the socket/charger (didn't know which one) sparked and exploded.
the smell of burnt electronics filled the air.

all i could do was sigh.

and so. after a day without the phone, i realized that an average teenager at the present time can not live a day without gadgets for communication. it also made me think about how my grandparents and even parents, managed to live without a cellphone. and here are my realizations:

- why is it just so hard not to have a cellphone now?? in the olden times, during our grandparents' days, their circle of friends were those whom they lived close to. neighbors, children of their parents' friends, schoolmates, etc. so if ever they needed anything from them, they could easily bike to their houses, ask their parents to accompany them to their friend's house, or simply wait for the following school day. in the now, i live a thousand miles and several seas away from home, i live ALL ALONE in a room in a dormitory, and my friends are too far to bike to. thank God for internet. yahoo messenger. emails. :(

- THE CELLPHONE IS THE QUICKEST WAY TO COMMUNICATE when you're not face to face. during our parents' time, yes, the telephone was born. but the telephones back then were those you had to dial. so it would take you 30 seconds to dial all the numbers. compared to the cellphone. it'd take you less than 5 to look for the number on your phonebook. during the telephone age, since one household owned at least one, everyone shared the thing. so when you call, you don't get to talk to the person, because 1. he's out (outside, in the bathroom, sleeping, etc), 2. busy. someone else is using the phone, 3. wrong number. with the cellphone, a person usually brings it with him everywhere (even in the bathroom, when he's out, or even when he's half asleep) so you get the reply you want.

- we've gotten so used to it. it's so hard to live without it now. your reminders, your numbers, your alarm clock, your crush. farewell.

how have i arrived with these realizations? since it was my hellweek, i've been frustrated several times with my thoughts just because i don't have a phone:
"shucks i have to tell ate no the enta members going to nstp. oh shit i don't have a phone"
"hmm. shet another nstp area tomorrow, have to alarm...... no phone. fail."
"i have to get my allowance from tito....... how will he text me!!!!!!!!!"
"i haven't remitted the speed raffles tickets yet, i should text pa..... sigh *goes back to mvp*"
"wonder if the companies i applied for will call me......... the number you dialed is not in service. PFFTT!!!"
"omg!! it's (insert name here)'s birthday today!!!!! *thinks* oh well, pagdadasal ko nalang siya"
"i should tell ate jean (my laundry lady) to pick up my laundry.......... or maybe itatancha niya nalang na matagal na akong di nagpapalaba"
"maybe i should register for chikka. *checks chikka* send a text message through your phone to register! GREAT!"

i am intellectually and emotionally stressed.
so what am i planning to do? i love this phone. i love kirk. and this phone was something that i really wanted. the moment i laid eyes on it, i fell in love with it. i can't just buy a new one and replace kirk. before, i went to nokia to get a new charger, i asked the service people what they could do so that my phone wouldn't slow down. they told me they had to update the system of my phone, and it meant that all my messages and pictures and files will disappear. i didn't want kirk to go through that, so i had to make tiis when it likes to hang, or when it suddenly decides to die in the middle of a call or a long text i just typed.

but if making kirk okay means i have to let go of the memorable text messages, the pictures, the reminders, the recordings.

maybe i will have it fixed. and have the casing replaced. and erase everything.
i just have to let go of the emotions i attach with material stuff. sigh.

i'm so proud of this. :)

on a brighter note

let's look at the things i'm soooo looking forward to:

- THE SURPRISE OF A LIFETIME. :) i'm so excited, my intestines are tickled. :)

- going home! i am probably not going home this april because i'm exchanging it for something better. :) so i might see iloilo on may-june na! still. i'm excited. :)

- ENTABLADO PLEVSEM 09 in ZAMBALES!!! I AM SO FRIGGIN EXCITED. but before the plevsem, of course, the eb initiation! hahahahahaha!!

- SY 0910!!!! WOOOH!! BRING IT ON!!!! wala lang. hahaha. kahit overload ako next sem, parang shet. HAHAHA LAST YEAR KO NA ITO. TAE!!!! BRING IT ON!!!

- my graduation gift. HAHAHAHA. i must make sure i pass everything first noh. :)
no i'm not asking for a house. but this is a pretty house noh? it's a MIJI HOUSE. and i want one. but this isn't what i was asking for. :)

- my OJT. a few schools have actually contacted me, and i am very excited with their pleasant responses! HAHAHAHAHA. although nothing is sure yet, i'm positive i can get in a pre-school! :)
this photo excites me. this is sooooo my thing. :)



yaaay!

Frustrations

this is a long entry. my attempts to make it short and colorful with photos and bold and italicized letters, are futile. forgive me. i just have to release.


1. MERCURY RETROGRADE taking its toll again. my laptop is not cooperating with me. the website my groupmate gave me is not working. and you might as well throw away my phone. and since mercury retrograde is about communication mishaps, i feel like i'm on a 2-week silent retreat. my roommates are gone and my ym mates are the only people i talk to at night. from 7pm until 9am the next day, i'm quiet as hell.

2. roommies are not here anymore. imy cha and iya! :(

3. oh look, it's my hellweek. i have deadlines. but you know what's better this time? my histo groupmates set a deadline earlier than the deadline our prof gave us, so that we don't cram anything, and we have enough time to edit and troubleshoot and stuff. and i think it's good for me too. and our psychtesting paper, we're done with our part even if the deadline was still sunday evening. so if anything happens, if there are changes to be made, it can be easily done. hellweek. sigh.

4. the fact that i can still manage to commit myself to things that are unimportant for me. i tend to say yes to anything, and then i end up frustrated because i took the job. to add to that, it's my hellweek and i can still say yes.

5. i've said it n times already. i'm the type of person who is on the extremes. i can be chaotic and OC. i can be productive but sometimes procrastinate forever. but most importantly, i can be SPONTANEOUS AND OC WITH PLANNING. you can text me to go watch a movie with you minutes before and i'd say yes. you can call me up and ask me if i want to accompany you to this person's house, gimme 20 minutes, i'll be there. but from that time on, from the moment we make spontaneous plans, my next few hours doing that spontaneous activity is already planned. let's say you text me at 12nn. i can show up at 12:30. and i'd give 5 hours for that activity (movie, eating, etc) and then when i get back to my dorm, i'd give an hour to procrastinate just to set my mood for studying, and then i study till i drop. i like planning because it sets my mind and body to what i will be doing. i like that my disposition, my mood, my outfit even, are planned ahead of time. i like allotting time for procrastination (yes i do that. there is a time to procrastinate for me) and time for in-between breaks when working.

WHAT I HATE MOST IS THAT WHEN MY PLANS DON'T HAPPEN. BECAUSE IT DESTROYS EVERYTHING. my disposition, my mood, the time i allotted for things, my body clock, EVERYTHING. i usually get disoriented. go home and stare at the ceiling not knowing what to do with that 5hour period i allotted for the supposed spontaneous trip. and so i end up procrastinating till i drop. no studying. no productivity. nothing.

i know it's something i have to work on, but for now, i don't give a shit.

6. the problem is i don't have a TV anymore. isn't that supposed to be a good thing? NO. I CANNOT STUDY WITHOUT THE TV ON. you can ask my roommates, i leave the thing on even when i'm not really watching it. i like the idea that i hear stuff going on while i'm doing my routine studying or procrastinating (yes, procrastinating has become a routine in my schedule). i like the idea that something new is going on every second. i like the idea that i'm not alone in the room when there's a tv. so what's wrong with playing my iTunes really loud? I ALREADY MEMORIZE THE SONGS in my playlist because it plays over and over again. so it's a routine too. i cannot do my routine (i.e. studying) along with something routinary(?!) too. and it has been hard for the past 2 months without the television.

what happened? i don't know. i left it on the whole evening. and when i woke up, it wouldn't turn on. i guess something inside of it exploded. overuse perhaps? idk. it's just weird without a tv. aside from not being able to watch shows, i feel so lost.

7. i want to go home. :( i already know my schedule, i just have to consult my mother. my mother who has not been replying to my messages. as you have already learned by now, i am oc with planning stuff. so. here are the things i have already planned when i arrive iloilo:
- BEACH. with friends in guimaras. with family in anhawan i guess. or the other way around. BASTA. I HAVE TO GO TO THE BEACH. Bora is overrated, crowded, and time-consuming.
- EAT NORMAL REAL AND BURGOS-LAPAZ-ILOILO-CITY-HOME-COOKED-MEALS. i miss nang fe's cooking. yes, go serve sotanghon for me, i'll eat it. (i usually don't eat her sotanghon because she serves it for lolo's poker session every sunday. we're kinda sick of it. BUT I WILL EAT SOTANGHON WHEN I COME BACK). i want to go to summerhouse and drown in crab morcons and patatim. the best in town. i want to eat lechon manok and liempo, the one lolo buys every sunday after mass in tinda lapaz. i miss bluejay's and coffeebreak. i miss jaro plaza's bibingka. i miss BALOT sold in front of Don Benito hospital. i miss Mang Inasal. i miss Peppy Thai's in Sambag, Jaro. i miss puto bungbong in pototan. i miss the dirty ice cream lolo buys from time to time. i miss the halo2x from tinda lapaz. i miss deco's lapaz batchoy. i miss PANTAT!!!!!!! omg I MISS BREAKTHROUGH and TATOY's. i miss their tangigue, blue marlin and lapulapu. shrimp and scallops and etc. the green seaweed thingy swimming in sinamak. i miss eating by the shore. i miss playing by the shore while waiting for the food. i friggin miss real food.
- do something new in iloilo. partying, coffee dates, beach (although i'm not tired of these) have always been our agenda during breaks. i want to do something new now. culture-tripping perhaps? go shopping in downtown iloilo and explore the architectural structures (they're destroying and renovating it little by little, we must explore them before they're gone!!),

go to far places and appreciate the old Churches and bellfrys and stuff. or go to RACSOS ZOO! even if we've been there a lot of times na. culture-tripping... what else. let's give art classes or theater classes to little kids! i just want to do something new.
- re-decorate my room. part of my procrastination is drawing my room's new look. inspired by xocolat katipunan, which was an old house turned into a restaurant. i must say, it's the loveliest i've ever seen. very home-y. :) i want my room to look somewhat like that.
- bond with mom and the kids. if they can't visit me here, then i have to be home asap.

8. imissmyfriends. i haven't been flooding a lot lately although i'm unli most of the time. i miss catt's chikas, i miss anabel's lovelife stories, i miss gwen's funny moments, i miss having sabog conversations with kela, i miss chikatime with shiek, i miss talking about life with pinkyfe, i miss going to beach with the ever present pinkyJ, i miss len's spontaneous out of town trips, i miss ben's apir, i miss everyone. :(( me wanna go home.


Gahd, i cannot believe it's thursday tomorrow. IT'S JUST SO FAST. enta seniors' party was just a few days ago, and now it's thursday. a few more days to go and it's going to be another monday again. faster please. faster. fast forward to summer, and then slow down until start of OJT. fast forward the OJT and then slow down during MY LAST YEAR IN ATENEO. yes, you can slow it down. so that i SAVOR EVERY FRIGGIN MOMENT OF MY SENIOR YEAR. shucks. i'm a senior now.


i can just foresee how many more frustration blogs i'll be writing next school year.