On losing 10lbs

For almost a month now, i've been on this "buwis-buhay" diet. I'm a pescatarian and a vegetarian now. I only eat fruits, vegetables and fish (boiled/steamed). I'm doing this for the 2 productions i'm in: Labaw Donggon and Trobol sa Troya. They didn't exactly say I had to lose weight, they just said we all had to be fit for the coming rehearsals (heavy choreo an dance rehearsals). It was also about time that I get myself into shape (also for health reasons). So for one month now, i haven't eaten pork, beef, rice... Chicken, only twice since i started.

The first 2 weeks was depressing: i was in a bad mood all the time, I was irritable and sensitive, hormonal, i reprimanded my students more than usual and felt tired most of the day. I would usually have anxiety attacks about life, about this stupid diet, about everything that i usually do not have problems with.

After a month though, i've learned that your body gets used to what you're feeding it, so even if you see an entiing baby back ribs on the table, you still would refuse it. Every week i have these mini cheat days wherein i'd allow myself to eat Tempura Tuna Sashimi Tartare and Kani Salad from Teriyaki Boy, 2 of my absolute faves in the world. It's still fish and veggies. :)

After one month, i finally had a cheat day: we ate at Sambokojin and ate all the sushi and sashimi i wanted. Nothin grilled or fried, just thefresh stuff. I had tempura, a wee bit of ice cream, chocolate and cake. I felt dizzy after lunch and my stomach was acting up--- my body reacted to the sudden bingeing, so i decided to box and bike it off.

People have been telling me how mich i've lost weight, but honestly, their reaction and how shocked they are doesn't equate to how i feel. I still feel the same, like i haven't lost anything at all. I still feel like it's the same size, same weight, same old same old. If it wasn't for the clothes that were magically ballooning on me or my costumes that would already drop to the floor because it would no linger fit me, i really wouldn't notice the difference. I still feel the same.

And when people tell me how i'm going to go back to my old eating habits when i've lost the weight, i've realized, it won't happen. For one, the body isn't used to how you used to eat before so i don't think going back would be easy. And second, if everyone was telling you you're losing weight, wouldn't you continue doing whatever you were doing because you now know it works? I would even double my exercise, and eat lesser this time because i now know that whatever i am doing works. It's easy, promise. The first 2 weeks were hard, but eventually your mind will control you. It's easy, i tell you. :)

Still sad and tired though. Just drink lots of water and conzace so you don't get tired or sick. :)

I AM SO TIRED

I CANNOT EVEN EXPLAIN WHY I'M DOING THIS TO MYSELF HAHA

BUT I'M SO TIRED.

On doing everything I want to do!

Wow this blog seems so ancient I hope no one has forgotten me yet. Well, if you keep on reading, you'd know why I haven't updated this in eons, and I'm probably not going to have as much time in the coming weeks!

What I've been up to so far since my last post (exactly 2 months ago):

MAY 2012

I had a great summer. 

Spent it with the best friends on earth.

Bestest friends on earth.

Met one of the greatest rappers of all time, GLOC 9, 

with the most amazing Crispy Sizzling Bulalo from Smokes, Boracay (d'mall)

Overall, it was a chill vacay.

Although our very own (kung maka-angkin o!) BB Chez did not win, I was still happy with the results. I knew PP would win, right from his auditions.

This was the best performance of the night. HAHA.

Brother came for the whole summer for dance classes. 

Was such a proud sister!

We got him into DAS (Dance Avenue Studio - Katipunan)

They performed their recital at the Henry Lee Irwin Theater in Ateneo. 

I was so devastated when he left; I got used to the whole set-up of me going home to my brother watching tv or preparing dinner for the two of us, or me picking him up from his rehearsals and then going straight to my rehearsals in Ateneo. When he left, it was just me again. So sad! haha But I got over it, moving on is so easy for me. HAHAHAHAHAHA K.

JUNE 2012

We've begun rehearsing for a Ateneo-ENTABLADO's season opener "Mutya" featuring the plays "Santong Tao" and "Ang Sistema ni Propesor Tuko". 

The two plays are ENTA's "greatest hits" so you cannot miss it!

I am part of the play "Ang Sistema ni Propesor Tuko" as Ningning! 

Catch my on my show dates:

JULY 6(fri), 10(tues), 12(thurs), 20(fri), 2012

We spent most of the first week of June preparing materials for school. 

Laminate all day. LAMINATE EVERYTHING!!!

Needed to post this. It was just so hilarious.
Psych majors (or even not?) will get this. haha

I took a break from my MA in DevPsy, to take some units in Education for the LET exam for teachers. So I am now taking 9 units of Education subjects, and hopefully I will be taking the LET summer of next year. I'm just iffy (IFFY?! haha) about the 9 units (last sem I only took 6 units and it was hell!). But two of the subjects are only worth 5 weeks (every Saturday from 8am to 4pm, IKNOWRIGHT). So by August, I will be done with 60% of my semester. #busygirl

I got a haircut. but not much.

My brother came to visit me! 

He had a quick meeting with the boy scouts of the Philippines as he is part of the 

National Board chorva. For a moment I was happy he was around, 

but when he left, I was all alone again. :((

JULY 2012

A few weeks before, we got news that PETA (Philippine Educational Theater Association) received so many nominations from 2011 Philstage Gawad Buhay for the play "WILLIAM" (where I played Ms. Martinez) and the hit musical "CAREDIVAS". I attended the awarding last weekend, and it was sooo overwhelming!!! Congratulations to PETA!! (Here's the complete list of winners)

WILLIAM

Oustanding Play

Outstanding Ensemble Performance

Outstanding Original Script for playwright Ron Capinding

Outstanding Male Lead Performance for Ian Segarra (Erwin)

Oustanding Female Featured Performance in a play for Meann Espinosa (Ms. Martinez)

Outstanding Male Featured Performance in a play for Jojo Atienza (Tatay)

Receiving the awards!

<3 with the cast, production team of WILLIAM

Check out Anj's touching blog "On PETA's William: Redifining Nosebleed"

A short excerpt of William performed at the Philstage Gawad Buhay Awards :)

Congratulations also to CAREDIVAS who won a handful of awards that night! :)

This may look like i'm hoarding the awards, BUT I WAS JUST SO EXCITED!! 

Congratulations to PETA and everyone on WILLIAM! It was an honor working with you guys!! :)

NEXT STOP: BATANG RIZAL
When I received the news that I will be joining the cast for this season's run of Batang Rizal, I was so ecstatic! The play was written by Christine Bellen (our moderator for Entablado's writers' bloc, Imahenasyon). I was able to watch the Ateneo gradeschool ACT's version of it, and I loved it! How much more when I get to do it with PETA! :)

Shows run for the first 2 weeks in August at the PETA Theater Center, and tours for the rest. :)

So excited to be part of this!!!! :)

I just had so much time on my hands today, and so much internet speed thanks to the Ateneo Rizal library (for which, I pay P4,000 a semester -- just getting my money's worth) so I was able to make a lengthy post/update. But for the coming months, I'll be so busy doing the things that I love to do!! I feel so lucky to be able to do everything, and everything just seems to happen in perfect timing and harmony with one another! There may have been times when my activities overlap each other, and require at least 3 of me to be able to do it, but I have discovered that I am a MEAN TIME MANAGEMENT QUEEN. I'm so thankful that even though it may seem as if I didn't have enough time, I still do actually. :)

More than anything, I am so thankful that I have a very supportive family. Never have I heard any of them tell me that I'm doing too much, that I must prioritize (well this is true, but still, everything is my priority haha), that I must only focus on doing one thing at a time. I have lived my life that I way I've always wanted it to be, and no one is stopping me. My parents have just been supportive, and I hope I make them proud. I hope you know that you raised me well, and both of you mom and dad, are good parents. :) The best any girl like my could ever have. :)

With that, I bid you, Adieu
T (since when did i sign my blogs with a T bwahaha)

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I'm handling this better than I expected. I'm not okay, I won't pretend that I am, but I know that I will be, and that's something I can hold on to. I've decided not to put those walls up, like I always do, because I have to go through this. If it means I'll ugly cry over a sad movie and a tub of ice cream with friends at a sleepover, I will go through it. Even if it means listening to every sad song until my tears dry out, I will go through all the cliche activities until I get tired of it. One thing I'll never do though, is lose myself. I am thankful that I had my mind conquer this right from the very start, and did not lose all of me in the process, because right now, after all this has happened, I still feel whole, like I haven't lost anything at all. I will not avoid conversations about this, I will not pretend like it has not happened at all, I will cry if I want to, I will go through it because it is worth it. I've been waiting for this moment for a very, very long time, and I want to grasp every moment of it. Because in the future, when I'm really okay, I won't have to look back because I have not missed a step in this process. So the walls that I've used to put up before, they're down. I will take anything. I will let the pain consume me. I will let this hurt me like it's supposed to.

If anything, all this is only going to make me stronger.

DRUMS! (App Review)

I am not the most reliable "APP REVIEWER" but the other day, my brother was asking if he could purchase an app from the iTunes store. We bought DRUMS! for $0.99 only and it's a great app, especially for frustrated drummers like moi! You can choose from a variety of drums to play with, pick whether you want it left or right handed, and then basta! It's so OH SOME! haha!

What really amazed me with the app, and probably what pushed me to do a review on it (it is worth reviewing and telling the world) was the feature where you can select songs to include in a playlist, and you can play drums along with the songs! got all giddy when I played the drums to my favorite songs!

If you are a frustrated drummer, or someone who loves music and jamming with whatever instrument, or whatever you are! this is an app worth buying! :) (it may even be better than all those Tap Taps!)


sobrang natuwa talaga ako! haha

Boracay

Just got home from our 6 hour bus ride from Caticlan to Iloilo. So tired!!!

But the whole trip was just relaxing and epic at the same time. We spent most of the day chilling at the shore(think: sipping cocktails by the beach, very pa-cool of us) and half of the night wondering where we're going to end up.

Even if people think Boracay is overrated and overcrowded, i still think it's where I want to be summer after summer. I will keep on going to Boracay until I get too old for it! Haha!

Pictures soon!

(posting from my ipod. Trying the blogger app)

i hate you.

i hate you because you are so clueless,
but i hate myself more for not telling you.

i hate you because you don't care,
but i hate myself more for caring so much.

i hate you because nothing is happening,
but i hate myself more for not doing anything at all.

i hate you because you're not doing anything,
but i hate myself more for expecting too much.

i hate you because you're never there when i need you,
but i hate myself more when i feel like i'm not enough for you.

but most especially,
i just hate you because
i hate myself more and more each day,
for loving you too much,
maybe even more than i love myself.

you just have to say it

just say you need me,
and you know i don't have to say it,
but i'll be right here
i'll be right here and i'll never leave

how do you let go of the only thing you're sure of?
you don't.
i won't.



#cheese #kesodebola

old habits never die

Our project for our Advanced Developmental Psychology class was to report whatever on Infancy. We decided to focus on infant classes, specifically Kindermusik, and designing one ourselves.

Ambitious, yes. Impossible? No.

Old habits never never never never die; I (we) crammed everything. Today, I had to design and layout the book, and make the powerpoint presentation in less than 8 hours. Haven't had sleep for the past few days just finishing this project. All I kept thinking today was "let's just get this over and done with, please" I was just really tired.

A few minutes ago, I asked a friend if they were ready for this presentation.

No presentations today. 

and that, my friends, is how the universe slaps you in the face. I've been telling you, stop freaking cramming!

random days, random thoughts

just want to say, i really love you! :)

How I Met David Archuleta

David Archuleta was here in the Philippines for almost 5 weeks, the longest he has been on any of his international visits. He was here to shoot a mini-series with TV5 entitled "Nandito Ako" and yes, he sang the Ogie Alcasid original.







I was dying everyday because I really wanted to see him, I was just busy (work and gradschool) and did not have time to exert as much effort as his fans were (think: fetching him at the airport, going to his presscons and mall tours every single time) But I really believed that we were meant to be. I thought it was the end of it all, when he announced that he was taking a 2-year time off from the biz to go on an LDS Mission? (He's a Mormon) And from that time on, I was hoping and praying that I would see him one last time before he leaves! Even praying that he would get sent to the Philippines for the mission, I'd quit my job and go to wherever he is! HAHA

Nandito Ako every weeknights at 9pm after Wil Time Big Time on TV5!

During his final week, I was losing all hope. I was ready for my 'dark ages'; the moment David leaves this country I'll be a total wreck, like how a boyfriend leaves her girlfriend for a promising career. Anyone who does not know my love (love, really, is an understatement for what I feel) for David, and who calls me "just" a "fan" does not know me that well. I am not just a fan. I really believe we are meant to be. (example, Katie Holmes was a huge fan of Tom Cruise even before she debuted on Dawson's Creek. Look. Well, there's a another example I'm hesitant to use but I'll just say it to get my point across: Anabel Rama) That level of love, and destiny and fate! Kasi naman! What are the odds of David Archuleta deciding that he wants to do a teleserye in the Philippines? Pwede naman kasi yung mga half-pinoy Hollywood stars diba? Or International celebrities (i.e. Carmen Soo, Marie Digby) who frequent flying to the Philippines.





So during his supposedly last week in the Philippines (3rd taping week for the miniserye) and I was losing all hope. And like Cinderella, a Fairy God Mother appeared. 

Maam Upeng was my teacher at PETA's Creative Musical Theater workshop last Summer.
We are meant to be. 

Feb 2, 2012 (Thursday) - I woke up with LBM (tmi ba) and I didn't go to work. Around 10 in the morning, I was feeling much better, so I got dressed for work and was a bout to leave, when Maam Upeng texted me  "punta ka na dito ngayon na" No brainer there. I got dressed again, and went straight to the set (yes, without my FGM telling me where to go, I knew where they were shooting haha) and met up with my FGM, Maam Upeng. Didn't take pictures while on the set because I couldn't and okay, I was shy to walk up to him and ask for one. (read: tanga) He finally arrived and greeted Maam Upeng.
FGM: David this is Timee, she's my student in musical theater. I just brought her along.David and Timee shake hands. Timee explodes inside. Timee cries inside. Timee screams inside.David: Oh wow musical theater! So nice of you to drop by!Timee just smiles at David. speechless.
DROP BY.Yes, because I was so busy with my life, all I could do was drop by. I was there from 12nn to 10pm. David I hope you know that I will not JUST drop by for you. HAHAHA
I was "BEHIND THE SCENES" personified. I was literally behind the scenes, behind the camera, while they shot scene after scene. And I was just so calm. I looked bored, according to the people who talked to me on the set "uy okay ka lang ba? mukhang bored ka na" YES, I AM AN EXPERT AT CONTAINING MYSELF, THANK YOU VERY MUCH. :)
When there were no scenes to be shot, we waited at the big dressing room, and sometimes, David would visit the rest of the cast there, make kulit with the kids on the set, photobooth with Jas, Eula and Gtongi, etc. I saw the David who was not with the fans. He was very makulit, very fun, and he bonded with everyone, not just the cast, but with the staff as well. The other cast members were friendly too, Jasmine Curtis-Smith, Eula Caballero, G Tongi, Alwyn Uytingco, Mon Confiado (this guy has been in the industry for a very long time, someone give him a breakthrough role! He does his job really well! Have you seen 'Sa Ilalim ng Tulay' a cinemaone original? He was soo good, I instantly became a fan! haha) 
I did not regret not taking any pictures (I did take some but I won't post it. haha I just needed proof that I was there hahaha!) because it was all in my heart. This was a dream come true. I did not even think that I would have this opportunity. 

Feb 3, 2012 (Friday) - I took the whole day off from work (hihi) because it was the shooting for the miniserye's 'concert scene'. TV5 needed an audience for Josh Bradley's concert, so they gave out shoot passes for those who lined up for it. I dragged Vian to line up with me at 10am (giving out of passes start at 2pm) and we did get the passes. 

Around 4pm, Fairy God Mother Maam Upeng texted, looking for us. She was going to take us in again. So we rushed to the venue, and met up with her, while the other fans were lining up with their shoot passes. We didn't need ours anymore. hihi. We sat in the theater where the concert scene will be shot, and made chika with Maam Upeng! It HAS been awhile since we were last with her! Suddenly, HE came on stage with Jay Durias and rehearsed a few songs. 
A private concert. for Vian and I. 
No screaming fans, no cellphones or cameras up in our faces to cover our view, no riot in the audience area, just his sweet voice serenading whoever was in that theater. 
I was happy. If the equipment fell on me and I died, that would've been okay. All my dreams coming true right in front of my very eyes. I was very happy. The happiest. 
We still went on with the concert scene shoot, he sang "Wherever You Are" and "Rainbow" originally from Southborder (which was why Jay Durias was on the keyboard, i miss Southborder!) and then "Nandito Ako" They shot the whole scene, including the audience screaming "Josh Bradley!" We were asked to bring posters and banners that say JOSH BRADLEY instead of David Archuleta. Since Vian and I were still putting up this "front" that we were NOT fans, we just politely clapped and cheered on for David. We did not scream, we also wanted to hear him sing the songs. Then he stepped out of his character for awhile, and sang "Something 'Bout Love" as his way of saying thank you to everyone who came out for the shoot. After those songs, it was dinner break. After that, were the scenes they had to shoot with the hired talents. The fans were free to stay if they wanted to, but we were tired and hungry (aba!) and it was late, and we were okay with whatever we experienced already. Nothing could top that anymore. 
So we stayed for a little more, wondering if we could take a picture with him. We took pictures with the cast instead! :)

with the ever pretty Jasmine Curtis-Smith (gulo ng buhok ko)

with the also ever so pretty, Eula Caballero

and ever so kind, Mon Confiado (seriously, showbiz industry give him a break!)

Bakit parepareho lang pose ko sa mga pictures? haha Everyone was so nice, including David's hairdressers, a team from Salon de Manila. I doubt if they remember me now, but they remembered me during my 2nd day on the set! "Oo nga, andito ka rin kahapon diba?" Jasmine said. haha "sorry pakalat-kalat ako sa set nyo" I replied. The others also said the same, kahapon ka pa nandito ako. YES, NANDITO AKO. hahaha

David Archuleta for Bench Fix along Magallanes

He even had enough time to shoot 2 videos for the pambansang VFF (Virtual Friend Forever) and the best Virtual Personal Assistant ever (better than Siri), Ate Vangie.


"Personal Scheduling"



"Vangie teaches Archie about PINOY 101" (this has got to be his cutest video everrrr! hahahhaa)

I did not see any more of David again after that because I'm afraid I'll get disappointed. Even if he came back to the Philippines for 2 more weeks to endorse for Bench Fix, to finish recording his OPM Album entitled "Forevermore" and to do more mall shows to promote his album and his mini-serye, Nothing will ever top what I experienced. Nothing. :)

Nandito din Ako, umiibig sayo. :)

Love you David Archuleta! See you again in 2 years! I am so confident that you will be back in the Philippines after your mission. :) 

love you like a love song

So when I like someone, I always have this playlist (not even) or a number of songs that remind me of him. I'm currently inappropriately in-like with someone, and I couldn't seem to find a song that reminds me of him. I've ran out of songs for you.

Because all the songs have already been for someone else. hehehehehehehe

#malandi

my kind of perfect

I love hearing about your day, and the things that make you happy.
I love how you tell me the things that ticked you off today, and how the world is so unfair,
because I tell you otherwise, and you listen to me. :)
Your laugh is the sweetest sound I'd love to hear,
like a meteor coming only once in awhile,
and I love catching that moment you let out a giggle.
I love your smile because it makes me smile for days and days. :)
I love your smell, the scent that makes me long for you when you're not around.
I love listening to the music you like, it's like watching you rock your heart out onstage.
I love your voice, and the way it tickles my senses, I close my eyes and as it caresses my ears
I love it when you stare; I just know my day is going to be alright. :)

I hope you know how much I love everything around me because I love you this much. :)

#chos

how has it come to this

I promised myself I'll do whatever it takes. WHATEVER.
But it has come to this, and though I'm afraid to, I will do it anyway.
This is the start.

But if I drown and can't seem to find my way back, please pull me out of the water. Because seriously, after this, I don't know if i'll be able to come back to my senses, and snap out of it.

So help me God.

Jinkee Pacqiao: teh, anyareh?

Ketna Patel

If you knew me well, these are just some of the things I am crazy for:
- Rainbows/Pop Arts/colorful stuff
- India and its culture (got this from watching too many Bollywood movies, starting with 3 Idiots!)
- Furniture (I am a frustrated interior designer!! I want to be one so baaad!)
- and everything else (like food, sweets, vintage designs CATH KIDSTON esp, etc)

and then Chuvaness (this is her site) posts about Ketna Patel (this is Ketna's site)

photos from KetnaPatel.com

you could imagine the look on my face when i saw this couch.
or this meme would perfectly describe that face:

(sidenote: definitely a sucker for rainbows!)

more furniture and pieces from Ketna Patel

I love this!

My kitchen is definitely getting one.

can't decide if I want this more than a ghost chair!

and these are my favorite pieces from her catalogue:

"Give and Receive"

"Halo Monks"

Ketna Patel, what kind of sorcery is this!!! I love everything!